Moving on...who does that???

     When exactly do you KNOW it's time to "move on" really? How much do you actually need to sit back and watch other people change their lives, before you do it too? My theory is, you NEVER do!

     I seem to remember that, at one point in my life, I used to be a very spontaneous, jumping in with both feet kind of person with out thinking about the consequences, may they be good or bad. A while ago it seemed that all those choices brought me were bad consequences, so I decided that I needed to grow up and be more responsible. I needed to think about what moving out would cost me, what going to a college in California would actually do for me, how I would live, the kind of bills I would always need to stress about, the family and friends I would lose...I felt better about my decisions to stay home, to live a "normal" boring couple of semesters, once I made the decision.

     It's funny, I didn't truly realize what kind of things I would learn. I thought staying home would be a breeze, it would be easy to live my life just how It had been. But it hasn't been easy at all. I know now something remarkable about myself. I LOVE change. I need change! I can't stand it when I see change happening before my eyes and I'm not apart of it. It completely kills me, to see people move on, get married, make babies, grow up, travel to faraway lands learning and doing so much good, that they themselves, are changing as people. Do you know what I mean? This isn't really about me having a purpose because I know what that is; having a relationship with my Heavenly Father, my family and that one significant person who will eventually make you so happy, you'll have babies and wonder why you were ever so worried or unhappy about life in the first place. I know my purpose. But not being this spontaneous, listening to your gut kind of person is someone I miss. 

     I don't want to worry about not moving on, about waiting for things to happen. But I think that this is life. Real life. And getting in car accidents, having to ask your parents for help, having to help your family in tough spots, asking for guidance, trusting God, knowing that if you have anything to offer the world and others, Heavenly Father will see to it that you get the chance to give....and give and give. That's what it's all about, giving and jumping in, and trying to move on and hope and pray, that the things you do will change your life.