FALL!

Some of my fall time pictures! It has definitely been an interesting journey for me this semester. I have been given a lot of different opportunities that I didn't really expect to get. This only happened after I rededicated myself to my scriptures and tried to learn about something other than my life and myself, which is on going. The more I learn about my ancient ancestors and the prophets in the Book of Mormon, the more God is blessing me with opportunities to keep my life busy. I am a lot happier with my life when I am busier and feel like I am accomplishing something good. Basically when I am serving more than myself and even more than my husband, the more I learn.

Since going into full on professional theater isn't exactly an option when you live in Utah Valley, I've been exploring other ways to satisfy my creative bones and delve into somethings that I have never done. I started scrapbooking... only costs an arm and a leg to start, landed myself an event coordinator internship that I am loving, and to keep at least SOME musicality in my life I'm teaching voice at the Scera and singing in A Christmas Carol. A bit of a mouth full but it all still gives me time with Michael and a little free time on my own, which I totally appreciate. 

I am still hoping that God has a bigger plan for me that involves legit singing, and if Utah Valley has taught me anything it's that I need to hang on and keep the patience where my dreams are concerned and not give up. I have been given something special that is meant to be shared wide. I just need to look up and know that Heavenly Father will make it happen as long as I keep that faith going.  

Sent this to Michael when he was having a rough day. His favorite color on me!

Hosted Shannon's baby shower. Not sure how, but it was a hit!

First film extra gig. I was a Russian traveler for Granite Flats 

Lucas reading for the first time with the help of Grandma Resare of course

Michael tried the mustache for a few day. I must say, he looked very southern with his cowboy hat on! 

Me and my Nephews hanging out

Family pics

Possible Halloween costume

Roof-top concert

Sister-in-laws. Love this girl!

Camping!!

Provo

Week 1 of new home. Not bad people, not bad. A/C, control of the heater, good wifi, high ceilings, 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, dishwasher, and sunlight...every normal thing that is supposed to belong in a house. Dude, so worth the rent and I'm soooooo sure I'm done with basements.

Cute cute cute cute

We love being so close to things and it's been fun making new changes!

NOW What?!

With almost a year going by and not a single post, I am officially designated a failure to blog, kind of like my own journal. What makes this so difficult? Maybe a lack of dedication, motivation? Failure to keep up a goal and follow through seems to be a pattern in my life recently. Or most truthfully, what the heck am I am supposed to do now?!! Graduating in April was a great moment for me! My degree was so freakin hard, it felt so good to finish! But now what do I do? I have wanted to sing on Broadway, act on the screen, dance on the stage my whole life...and up till now I never realized that reality is a little different. Or that the dreams need to change with life, marriage, babies etc. Things don't always work out the way you want to, God usually has different plans...which you know, I am okay with, but I have never really figured out a way to be happy any other way, with my career choices that is. Or maybe I just have no idea how to balance making my family happy while pursuing an arts life. Needing to work is another problem I am facing, and the only thing I feel qualified for is teaching, which I enjoy but don't want to do as my #1 career choice....

But ya know it's funny, the more I feel tangled and frustrated, and the more times I read over what I have written, my problems could be way more horrible than not knowing how to follow my dreams. I have a wonderful life! My husband is the best man I have ever met, literally my best friend. I am moving into a nice home with A/C, finally! And a number of talents at my disposal that couldn't have possibly happened if God hadn't given them to me. I have the Gospel, an eternal marriage, my happiness is already here, I am living my happiness and enduring till the end....things could be a lot worse. I am very lucky to have a hard working, understanding husband that gives me the opportunity to even consider doing the things I want to do, what ever they may be. I should honestly shut up and be more grateful! :)